加油！！！

14:30

It's been a long time!
EOY passed and got back results.
Quite satisfied as I did my best
but was angered at the countless careless mistakes that I made. =.=
like 5=15 tsk

A lot ppl have been saying that I must be mad to take BCMG
but geog is the only humans that interest me and that I can score in.
Not that I really like humans but have to take it no matter what.
Hope that I can cope next year!
Shall start reading textbook during hols.

Thought that post eoy would be quite free but it's not really the case for me.
Have to work on my chinese - I want my A!
And to practise clarinet and piano which are both quite sucky now.
And getting addicted to backyard monsters and the lovely bones. :P
And to get bday presents which I don't know what to get! :o

Things to complete this hol!:
1. Improve Chinese (Read guide books, do assessment etc)
2. Clarinet
3. Piano
4. Go exercise! (Run/Swimming)
5. Go out with Melissa
6. Go out with Wendy
7. Clarinets Outing!
8. Bake!
9. Read Storybooks
10. Watch Dramas
11. Improve English (Read Essays, Do Vocab Assessment)
12. Read Geog and Bio
13. Play Audition, Backyard Monsters blabla

20:44

A month passed!
Summary:
Shopping for lester's present with yps, yh and bl
Lester's Bday (ECP) lols fail intuition. and my ankle :X
Shopping for isabella's present with celine and hazel
Isabella's Bday (Sakae Sushi)
Julia's and Thiri's Bday (Seoul garden)


Hmm. Soon it will be CTs and EOYs and then Holidays :)
Not feeling stressed but I hope it's not a bad sign!
Cos everybody else around me are feeling so stressed about CTs and EOYs.
I haven't even started any revision yet!
Can't understand how they will be able to remember everything by then.
I shall start revision for CTs only tmr!
Bio and Math 2 and LA first.
Will plan the rest of the subjects later.

Will start EOYs revision only after common tests.
I hope there won't be any important assignments/projects by then!
Was kept busy this whole week cos of BP and ACE proj although there were no tests. :X

Been on quite good moods for the past month:)
I'm always the one who's highing at my row in class.
I think that's always the case! o.o
And I will be super happy when lessons are over cos it's another step to the end of the week :)
I must continue to stay happy everyday plus sleep at 10 plus ! :)
Then I won't fall asleep in class.
Heng I not that crazy over lake liao!
Not happy cos of lake!
Lake反而 make me unhappy! :X

Hmm I miss playing in band. The sydney band.
This only came to my realization only recently.
I will never play with the same people again. My 孩子们!!!
I never fancied changes :(
moreover this is such a big one.
I hope my intuition abt this is incorrect as usual though!
I want seconds!

Now abt friends!

Wendy my 奶奶！hahas this is so long ago! I realised that although I keep saying that I miss sec 1 and sec 2 times but I know it's impossible to go back to then :x I think mostly cos of me :( Cos I really dk how to 分配 my time between friends then now become we seldom sms each other/ talk to each other. Haiz at me! really very sorry! Anyway, you are still my close friend! I can tell you almost everything but it's just that now idk how to express :X like now i need to think of what to say instead of everything coming naturally :X hmm let's start smsing each other frequently soon! I shall initiate more! And in SH i will take CLL :) then have time to xiangchu le :)

YPS! Now we xiangchu very little too! Cos don't have band le and you busy over machine and stuff :X and I keep daoing your smses like now! Shall reply now! Okay continue! I dk what to say actually! But I want thank you for listening to my 牢骚 on family and blabla stuff like band everytime. Your views always very objective and not rash like me. Difference between T and F heheh! Anyway, hope you find your that time de highness again! and will see river everyday! ^^


Lester <3 fish! What's 保姆照顾的孩子called!? o.o I'm currently daoing you cos I'm doing this! Sorry! Hmm! In the span of around 1 year we've become so close! heh! We know so much abt each other's secrets :O Just found it shocking suddenly! Anyway, you really are a great friend that I treasure. can talk abt a lot of things like lake and fish and go crazy and complain and stuff blabla. And enjoy going to sch with you although everytime kenna misunderstood by ppl zz =.= Hmm anyway! hope that you won't worry abt too much stuff! 看开点阿！Go Fish! :)


Almighty nuts! I think you won't see this! Cos you don't know I got blog I think! I think we become more shou cos you everytime call me! ^^ I happy that you call me cos can talk abt random stuff when asking hw too hehe like complain abt teachers blabla hahas. and when you ask me hw I can shun bian revise lols. Anyway, I enjoy talking to you! Your views always make sense heheh! I think you treat everybody sincerely and you very loyal to your friends :) A lot of times you very selfless too! I respect you! Hmm! But a lot of times I think you worry too much abt studies and then stress yourself up! must 看开点! Jiayou for studies!

“瑶”到外婆桥！My fellow ISFJ! hahas! is it lu lao shi who siad that? or miss ng? lols! Hmm when I think of you you make me feel happy! cos almost everyday you are smiling! Enjoy joking and laughing with you! You bring joy to other people! Although sometimes people make fun of you are still always smiling! I hope it's not you hide really feelings inside your heart or smth arh! I like your optimistic view of life! Although you always very blur but you always place other ppl's need above yours! Really thanks for helping me to keep up with my work when I just came back from sydney!! :)


Celine! Idk you got what nickname! Hmm anyway, although we seldom talk much (always you and hazel 斗嘴ing! you two always very funny hahas! ), a lot of our views the same I think! Cos we complain abt similar stuff like _____ ... Anyway, zuijin you always sleep in class eh! I think you another victim of stress again! Jiayou!!!


Best Friend! Aiya i know is 说说only la hahas! We are like opposites! You very very E i think! I very very I! And the things we like very different! But I really very grateful when you help me! Like last time when we were table mates explaining math to me and also now collecting money for me :) Anyway, I think that in the future you will become 做大事的人 cos you very confident and have your own opinions unlike me everything suibian suibian! I admire you! :)


随心所欲! Wah when I think of you I think of stress! Everyday you look so stressed! And you like lose sleep everyday de! Hmm must learn how to let go sometimes! Anyway, thanks for listening to me crap everyday and for tolerating me when I very domineering/bossy during projects! I've been grping with you for a lot of projects since last year. hahas yuan fen!


Bella! hahas I know you posted that I love you on my twitter! Heheh! But i took quite a long time to realise that alamaks. :X Anyway, talked more to you since our buffet outing at sakae! didn't know you so crazy over korean dramas de! i thought only mabel eh! Anyway, hope to know you better! Jiayou for studies!

Belbel! hahas I think this name very cute! You and siyao always very funny de! Talking abt how to jian fei but in the end always give up in the end hahas! Will never forget what we did at sakae with our skirts :X. Hmm you are a nice friend to talk to! We can crap a lot and complain lols!


Last time best friend! Haiz also shuo shuo de. I don't know why now we don't even talk. I guess our character too different already yeah? and last time we quite shou with each other is only cos of projects. Hmm maybe we both changed. Idk but you seem so diff from last time o.o But still glad that we were good friends once! You always would know what I was thinking somehow! And you tried to cheer me up when I was feeling unhappy last year. Really grateful for all these! Anyway, you look very stressed up recently! Jiayou! :)

21:16

DAY 1 (22/23 June)
Sat with yuan hui and cheryl on the plane.
Slept through the whole flight except for eating.
I don't like A380 seats. very upright. :X
Wake up neck pain.
Reached Sydney in the morning. Forgot what time it was.
Then went onto coach and went for city tour around Sydney.
Don't rmb much and didn't take much photos cos smth happened to me. Felt like throwing up :X
Was like that until we reached the hostel.
Hostel quite okay. And the our room 313 was very near the toilet hahas.
Toilet quite nice design too.
Went to bathe!
Bathed the slowest..
Then went down at 530 for dinner at nick's Bar and grill.

Dinner was fish and chips with tartar sauce. No chili zz.
then the bread conflict happened. and I was ??? at what happened.
Back at hostel smth bigger happened.
then after that became small and hopefully is already nth liao lols.

Played cards and five stones after that i think. Sat outside our room.
I think I play until quite sian after a round or 2 and went brush teeth or smth.
hmm then after that yps went webcam. Internet ex! 1 hour 4 bucks!
Everyone else sleeping. Quite funny hahas.
Then my brother didn't come online and i went to sleep in the end.

Then around 1plus yps came to wake me up.
Shook my bed and I was shocked cos i thought my leg moved by itself.
Then she had rash and can't breathe.
a lot of things happened then she went bathe and vomit and bla. :X
Camped in toilet for 1 half hours is it?
Then i diagnosed that it was indigestion cos all the rice she vomited was whole.
Should learn from me eat and bite slow slow then stomach will be very happy hahas.

Day 2 (24 June)
Woke up at I think 6am.
Breakfast at 7am i think! Cereal and cold milk. zzz. Can't take cold stuff. In the end eat muffin and bread.
Then went to epping boy's high.
Rehearsed.
Then after that there's morning tea.
Tim Tams and other biscuits and cakes!
But I don't dare take much cos skin too thin lol.
After that was the exchange.
We played their songs and vice versa.
Forgot what's their songs :X
the conductor always very high hahas. I think he called Mr Frost.
He's crazy abt planes. lols.
After that was lunch!
Ate beef sausage sandwich :X
Cos the lady already take and i don't want eat the veggie one...
Talked to some of the students for a while and blabla then went in again.
So cold outside...
Performed the 4 pieces and then went back to hostel.
Received gifts from them but I bet is they random give de lols. bass clarinet came to give me o.o

After reaching hostel quite sian..
Went the convenience store outside but everything is so ex. Like 711. Tim tam 3.95. more ex than sg.
In the end we went up room put stuff then went to Paddy's Market.
Abandoned Lester cos he never answer door. Sorry :X
Hmm bought a magnet there only.
Cos almost everything is made in china and not authentic anyway.
Decided to buy macadamias on day 4.
Yuan wen bought metal cases with stickers and yuanhui bought domo. Yps bought coin cases and blabla.

Went back to meeting place at around 5.10.
Then found out that there was a supermarket and a lot of outlets upstairs. =.=
Hmm then went back to hostel to put stuff and came down again for dinner.
hmm another conflict almost happened but heng it didn't.
Dinner was at City Extra. Fried Chicken.
Then I went sleep halfway cos very tired and felt sick.
After dinner somehow my eyes super pain. couldn't open and tears just kept streaming down.
Back at hostel teachers tried to drop eyedrops into my eyes but i just can't open.
My reflex action was to dodge the eye drops. Then in the end very fail and caused a lot of trouble to the teachers.. Sorry :X

After that eyes felt much better.
one of the stones kenna lost then in the end was in lester's jacket lols.
After playing went to bathe and i think we continued playing again.
Slept at 11 plus I think..


Day 3 (25 June)
Breakfast was the same thing again. Very sian zz. Decided to drink the cold milk and eat the cereal le. cos nth to drink.
After that was the tour @ The Rocks District.
Quite boring cos just walk walk and the tour guide show pictures and say stuff.
After the whole tour went to Pancakes on the rocks restaurant to have lunch
Had the ultimate pancake.
The cream cheese and strawberry sauce was very nice but I got sick of it very soon.
Felt like throwing up and sick later.
Wasted a lot. :X How i wish i can eat it now lols.
Then later kenna stomachache. Dk cos of the pancake or what. Yuan hui stomachache too..
Walked back to the coach and was late for 10 minutes. 1220.
Saw some random plane writing words on the sky.
Very cool!
Only saw TBHI.

After that went to St Andrew's Cathedral to have rehearsal.
The building very nice! Like castle.
But there very cold. No heater..
Was very very out of tune. Flat! Sounded very airy :X
After that changed fingerings.
Didn't go to tour the cathedral and see the big big pipe organ cos stomachache or smth again :X

Ended the rehearsal quite early @ 3 plus I think!
Went to Darling Harbour. Supposedly for shopping but in the end we played clarinet there. Bryan went with Isacc. Left with yps yuan hui yuan wen and lester.
Yuan hui slept then lester very sian. Only we 3 play I think.
Then miss tan and miss soh came. talked. Forgot abt what..
Then not long after I went toilet with yuan hui.
Saw yu kun they all. And they tricked us into eating some "sweet"
Sour :X made my tongue numb. went to throw away.

Then it was dinner @ Rossini's.
Fish and Chips again.
No rice and chilli and raw vegetables. zz
But I ate the whole thing cos I very hungry.
Played cards there too.
After that my eyes pain again. zz but heng not as serious.
And teacher never notice. So no eye drops hahas.

Went back to hostel and bathed. Went to 5th floor lols.
After that played five stones at the TV lounge at 4th floor I think!
Until 10 plus.
Smth very funny happened then I laugh till almost cry.
After that kenna scold by miss soh cos we broke the curfew.. :X
In the end I went to on com but brother not online again..
Left message and decided not to on com again.
Very tired..
Used the remaining time of the internet to play icy tower but fail lols. 10 storeys or smth only.
Slept at around 12.

Day 4 (26 June)

Rehearsed at the basement carpark..
Very cold..
And the place quite scary.
Played from memory.
Quite out of tune again..

After that was shopping at Paddy's Market again. Went directly to the supermarket.
I went crazy there. Bought $57.10 worth or TimTams and other biscuits and chocolates.
Super heavy!!!
Then I went to buy honey roasted macadamias. Quite nice! :) But ex also. $19 for 500g.
After that went to cotton on and supre and other shops.
Don't have my size zz.
In the end there was no time for proper lunch then I ate takoyaki only.

Later was the Sydney Opera House Tour.
Yukun and Cheryl really bought a kite and went to fly it lols.
After stoning and eating fro a while yps me yh bryan and lester went to walk around opera house and to take pictures.
blabla. then 2 oclock reached then went back to meeting point again.
Took group photo then after that went to the royal botanical gardens.
nth much interesting except for the bats.
After that went to walk the harbour bridge.
Very long! but the view on the bridge was quite nice.
We were the last to reach the other side hahas.

After that we was dinner!
Decided to cook spaghetti but bryan wanted to eat instant noodles..
Bought the stuff and nougats and went back to hostel at 615.
Finished cooking at 7 plus.
The water took super long to boil zzz
It was quite nice except that the noodles was not fully cooked.
Got cheng jiu gan anyway!

Went to take Blackforest Tim Tam to eat before coming down for debrief.
In the end late :X
After debrief sat down to play 5 stones until 845.
Conflict almost happened again..
Haiz.
Then went to bathe.
Had quite long convo with yps while bathing lols.
Yuan hui say very funny hahas.
I came in last for bathing again.
Yps went to rehearse some item for xavier college.
Yuan hui waited for me in case i got any 三长两短 lols.
Then after that was all abt packing!
Packed very long..
Then yps came back at 1045.
In the end we talked until 1145 lols.
Went to sleep after that.

Day 5 (27 June)

breakfast was at 8am or 830am I think! Happy!
After that was the Harbour Cruise tour. I thought the cruise would be like 30 mins or smth but in the end 2 hours o.o
Took pictures of the opera house and the harbour bridge until quite sian.
Then later there was food!
Tim Tam and Muffin and the Coconut with chocolate cake. Lamingtons!
And tea plus arnott's cookies.
After eating felt sleepy lols. slept half lying on the floor and chair with yuan hui. Looked like suntanning lol.
Reached the harbour at 12.
Then it was a super quick lunch.
Ate a ham quiche.
Quite nice but i was too full to eat finish. Gave yuan hui.

Then it was the exchange with xavier college @ Sydney Conservatorium of Music .
They very scary.
Like 笑里藏刀
Played pirates of the carribean.
Gong about rhythm..
Then when everything ended took picture with their clarinets.
Quite pissed off cos no time already still take picture.
Then bad mood for around 2 hours or smth.
Went to the botanical gardens to play.
Didn't play much cos not in the mood to.
Then while walking back an australian came to talk to me and welcomed us to singapore.
Mood better lols.

After going back we went to change.
Yps and me changed very long cos we didn't wear stockings.
In the end a lot ppl never changed also then went directly to the workshop.
Dennis Johnson was quite funny.
keep saying Hi Yall'
Then in the middle bryan kept laughing non stop cos of what roy said hahas.

After that workshop was dinner.
First time eating char siew rice w/o chilli and then there was a lot of fats on the meat so didn't manage to eat much.
And the rice was super a lot.
Then it was performance time.
Out of tune again zzz
Other that that quite okay.
then went back to watch rest of performance but left quite soon after.
Reached hostel at 905 or smth.
Then the auntie me suggested to bring all bathing stuff then after debrief chiong to bathe hahas.
Went 5th floor to bathe again.
Slowest again!
Bathed finish le did some last minute packing.
Was quite worried that everything wouldn't fit but it fitted in the end hahas.
Then cos i kept slippers already yps and me wore court shoes to toilet lol.
Slept at around 11 plus again cos of packing.

Day 6 ( 28 June)

Woke up at 6 or smth!
Breakfast was at 6.45.
Cos we had a workshop at 730..
with kevin cameron.
Very sleepy then played wrong stuff...
Haiz.
Then it was soundcheck.
After soundcheck we headed back to the hostel to check out and reached the town hall back again at 10 plus.
Rehearsed the chorale part but couldn't really hear.
Then ate a subway cookie!
Nice :)
After that it was the competition already.
Was quite in tune this time heng..
But yuan hui and isabel didn't play!
Communication error :X
alamaks haiz.
Anyway, everything was quite successful.

After the competition was packing time!
Clarinets hand carry so had a lot of free time. Stoned. And ate my subway sandwich quite slowly.
But somehow still win yps.
After that went to change out of concert attire. yps stomachache and i went out of toilet first.
After that stoned again.
Then there was the dvd episode.
Haiz lester! your mission failed!
I feel quite bad but haiz nvm!
Dk how long later we went down to the first level to wait for other instruments to load onto the bus.
Took picture with mr ng and after that we headed to airport.
Changed shoes and felt the difference immediately.

Then there was the long wait for checking in.
very inefficient hmm...
talked and took pictures during the wait.
I think we waited around 1 hour plus or more..
Thought there would be time for some last minute shopping but we guessed that there wouldn't be judging by the time.
Until when we reached the boarding gate, there was still a super long queue despite it being the last call.
Then we went to newslink to buy stuff.
I bought timtam again on rashness again but really felt like eating it.
the price was more than twice that that of the supermarket's.. =.=
And bought 2 packets of starbursts.
Very ex too.
haiz.

Then we boarded the planes abt 15 minutes later. Around 6 plus I think.
Forgot to take my clarinet cos i was eating tim tam :X:X
Felt very sorry.
Heng miss tan took for me.
Changed place with stephanie on plane to sit beside yps but didn't talk much cos I kept sleeping.
Didn't talk a word to yangwei too.
Lols i think i can survive in silence.
Slept through the whole of the plane except for eating and going toilet and talking for a bit.
But still very tired when the plane touched down..

After that i was gong gong and then waited for others to take instruments.
Watched some sand art thing on tv at the luggage conveyor belt.
Quite cool.
Then after going out of the arrival hall took taxi and went home.
Slept at around 2 plus.
Super tired...

END OF TRIP!

Everything seemed like a dream o.o
Haiz anyway quote from yps's phone:
'Don't be sad that it is over, but be happy that it happened"
:)
Going to do revision for physics practical tmr!
Back to reality! School :(

17:05

23:11

Today is a happy day! =D
I am a silly person! :P

Screwed up for ASEAN lol!
Keep getting lost and o.o
Laughing when going down stage.
Went Subway to eat lunch.
Ate cookies. :)
Then went plaza sing walk walk.
Bought percy pig gummies.
Quite nice but very sweet
Ate too much sweet stuff le.

Anyway, did the personality test again!








21:11

Yesterday was the last Rhythm for me but I'm not happy at all.
I wanted to sleep lol.
And i played badly for most pieces.
心情 was really bad.
Sorry to juniors if I became your wet blanket!
Esp to those who were experiencing their first rhythm.
Anyway, still grateful to people who gave me cards and presents.
Esp to juniors and yps. Really touched by all your cards.

Maybe I found the reason why I was unhappy and I realised that maybe I'm too selfish. But that's just me.
I'm not that 伟大 and I don't have a lot of tolerance
I expect a lot and I guess I'm greeted by disappointment
Maybe I think too much and maybe all my 观念s are wrong,
being so subjective
But I don't think I can change. Sorry.

I feel tired. maybe I 自找麻烦
haiz.
I shall just stand back and let things 顺其自然
Haiz I miss year 1 and and year 2 life.
When everything is not so complicated.
Why are there so much problems now?
Feel so much more depressed.

22:47

Today is a happy day :)
PW presentation went quite okay. But QnA sucks but forget it..
After presentation like 如释重负:) so happy that it's over!
Before that I was super stressed over it and I was so shocked that it was at experimental classroom o.o
3 classes so scary! But during presentation I realised that most of them are not listening to me so not stressed le lols.

Hmm after PW went quite high.
I'm always the high one in my row. lols
I talk a lot of crap. Yvonne is the make a lot more sense than me one. And Xiao jie is the stone haha! I like sitting at my current place. Everyday is interesting lols.

Back to today!
Bio was a breeze.
Return pop quiz and bla.
Bit never show grades.. Hope tmr will show!

Then after that very shiok liao.
Math was free period cos teacher sick.
Then I did theory for 1 hour.
Did very slowly. Hate scales and identifying keys! esp minor..
Then some classmates went crazy in class and sang songs from npcc text book. o.o
Random: Yvonne was doing french and Xiao jie was sleeping.

After that was physics!
Had OBS talk for 45 mins hahas!
I'm scared for OBS!
I don't want to become black black and sunburnt.
Blabla and most of all I don't want to meet new people.
Feel weird talking to people i don't know. Like last year start of year. Almost get depression lols.
I'm such an introvert :X

Hmm.. then sch just ended like that.
Had lunch with peishan venus and julia :)
Then it was band.
self praced and SPed.
I need to prac more le!
I can't play anything well now.
Must train more on foundation stuff. esp tonguing!
Scared that I don't have enough time to prac cos there's only so little time before concert!
Hmm :X

SP ended at 545. Went home with yuanhui and lester :)
Love my juniors =D
Shall end here!

IMPT Day coming:
Hazel's Bday! :)

22:12

So long never really blog!
Previous post not counted lols.
I realised that I forget stuff very easily >< I can forget what happened during the last long weekend de :X
I shall blog more frequently! So that I will have something to look back when I grow up! :D

This year a lot of stuff happened.
Got really bonded with (most of) clarinets. Thanks to all the trainings and stuff :)
And I have children now!!! (Thanks Yuan Hui for the Mother's Day Gift!!! hehe! ^^)
Went quite crazy over ....
Quarrelled with ypsssss ><
Cried a lot of times I think! :(
Basically my life just revolved around band and clarinets. And it still is now! :)
Can't imagine life w/o band. All my close friends all there!

Hmm shall start with major events!

SYF!!
I think this is the last major event that I can rmb right now. Others can't le. haiz
On that day rmbed getting all the super duper great gifts from seniors. They spent so much xin si! (Unlike us :X)
Then after that i got no mood for LA lecture and Ace. Was counting down to the time that i could go down to bandrm hahas.
And after that everyone was giving everyone else gifts and blabla.
Then in between forgot le :X

Fast forward to SCH!
Sat at the lobby for quite long I think!
Talked and stuff. forgot..

Then after that went into the holding room.
The holding room sucked!
Made me super worried cos my tone was so ugly there!

After that we were suddenly moving off to the stage.
rmbed getting nervous right before playing
And after that the time on stage went super fast. Didn't feel like competition to me..
But i didn't play my best though. Made quite a number of mistakes! That's why I cried after that o.o Couldn't control somehow.. Then seniors were all comforting me. But the more they comforted me the more I cried.. Idk why! o.o

Hmm then on the way back ypsssss tried to cheer me up by singing JJ songs hahas.
In the end we both sang. lols!
Then blabla then reach sch liao.
Hmm after that forgot what happened le!
But i rmb that the days after SYF was so weird! Like I lost a goal to work for.

Then the next day was the release of results.
Dk why i cried lol. I think kenna influence and expectations too high or smth!
Hahas in the end I don't see the point in crying also. Wasted water. lol.

Shall stop here for SYF. Will blog more abt other stuff tmr!

Now for today!
Scared will forget also.
Today quite happy :)
Cos got back most of results and all quite okay except for Chem. Hmm cross fingers that I will still get A+.
But until band I not happy le!
So late!
zz rather not talk.

Tmr is my PW!
Super scared cos I don't have confidence at all ><
Scared i will stutter/ talk too fast blabla! Imagining the bad things! So ISFJ hahas
And i think i will just stone for QnA.
Haiz good luck to me!

Tmr morn band :)

22:17

I thought friends are supposed to share weals and woes.

You don't understand me at all. And maybe I don't understand you too.

Maybe you changed or I changed.

Things just aren't the same anymore.

You hurt me so deeply.

20:19